Salutation

It was the first time I saw her speaking with someone. She was on the other side of the library hall with one of my friend. They shared a laughter as I approach there, and it appeared like they enjoyed their moment. I greeted my friend and said “Hi” to the Miss. I realized that I will get late to catch the bus so I gave a quick hug to my friend and said goodbye to the Miss. 🙂

The next day, I was sitting on a couch in the corridor, waiting for my next class. There she came, walking in my direction. Her class was next to my class, so she sits and waits. “Hi” I greeted her. She said nothing. Maybe she didn’t hear it. I stood up and moved to my class as my professor entered the classroom. 🤓

I didn’t really know, “If she heard and ignored me, or didn’t she heard my salutation?” I asked myself. 🤔
The class got over. It was an interesting session, but I was very tired. Heading towards the bus station, I saw her walking to-and-fro the bus stop. “So she also takes the bus?” I asked myself. Maybe this time, she will hear my salutation. When I reached the bus stop, I said in a loud voice “Good Afternoon”. Now it was confirmed, I know she won’t reply. 😳

Two weeks later, I was in the Math center, helping junior students with their homework. She came, passed by, and sat down. Miss was really silent. I was able to notice she had a problem, she needed help, but she won’t call the Math tutor. Then she raises her hand and made a sign to call the tutor. Why can’t she just say “Excuse me, sir?” I asked myself. Here my friend came, she greeted me and I greet her back. 🙂

“Can you please help my friend?” my friend asks.
“Sure, I will.” I replied.
“Thanks, and please be patient with her; she is deaf.” 😐

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A Day Without Spectacles

Thursday, July 2, 08:43,

After travelling for around 1 hours 25 minutes I had reached the place where I had to spend the next 8 hours. It was another routine affair of travelling the same distance and resuming my project work. After deboarding from the bus, I took a walk from the bus stand in the way of public transit and reach the center within 15 minutes of time. I decided to go to cafeteria & take something to eat. As it was slightly hot outside, I ended up taking a cold coffee to drink. 😛

With sipping the freeze coffee that tasted great, I reach the upper floor using the staircases. I occupied my workstation and kept my belongings at the place. I took the water bottle out from my bag, and then searched for the specs box that I couldn’t find. After searching in all the zips of the bag I got to know that I have forgot to bring my specs. I stood up from the seat and told a close by colleague that I forgot my friend back home. 😛 In laugh she said, ‘What??’ I added, I forgot my glasses. 😦 😥 Calmly she said, not a problem it happens at times. And with that I spent my half of the Thursday without any vision correctness. Normally, I don’t wear my glasses when I am travelling, it has been a habit. I always keep my specs within the box and place it in a specific spot of my bag. And on that very day it didn’t happened where it used to be. 😐

I am really not blind, – 2.25 prescription only. I worked in the similar environment I was working for over past 15 days. I was aware of the paths to travel on the floor.
From the past 5 years I am wearing glasses and it was second time this had happened. The last time it was okay because I was not doing anything that needed accurate sight. But this time it was about a lot, where did I put my keys? Is that a bug or just a dot? How do I know I’m not stepping on a nail?

The oddest part for me, though, was not being able to see anybody’s face as I walked around the floor. As I mentioned, I knew where I needed to go without having to pay attention to the markings. But when it came to people I would walk past and see them and their body language, but their face was a complete blur. Many questions emerged in my mind, are they looking at me? Are they smiling? Frowning? Are they talking to me??

As I previously stated, I don’t wear my glasses while travelling. An incident that occurred with me when travelling in a rapid metro. I was seated in front of a group of girls who all appeared to be friends. I was listening to music and feeling sleepy. 😛 When you’re not able to see clearly, you tend to look in a direction with strange looks and blinking eyes, and without any reason I was directed towards the group of the girls. One of the girl from the group waved her hands in front of me and indicated in a questioning way! I signed her to wait and I put my glasses on, she started laughing and said I thought you were gazing at me but you’re myopic. 😀 😛

Having no idea was really weird. I knew that I was looking at them, but could not tell if they were looking back (I assume I freaked a few people out by staring). It made me feel completely disconnected. 😛

If you wear glasses, perhaps try it for few hours. 😉

The Scariest Part!

You asked,
what is the scariest part?

I answer:
The scariest part is
not the feeling of loneliness
or the darkness that fills you
despite the looming pain
of emptiness.

The scariest part is the realization
that you have lost yourself completely
sinking in as you lay awake
at 2 am
because you lost the ability to sleep
and you can’t even cry
because you don’t even care. 😐