I’m okay

I lied..
When I said..
I was okay! 😐

She and He

She’s laying on bed with her iPod on full blast.
The door is locked, and the curtains are drawn.
On the TV screen is The Notebook.
An empty tub of her favorite Ice-cream lies on the floor.
Smudged with makeup, her fingertips are stained
from wiping away her mascara and eye liner stained tears.
Their last conversation plays in her head.
She thinks to herself, that she’ll never get him back.

He’s on the edge of his bed, the doors locked.
His room is pitch black from the absence of lights.
Black Ops is in its box and the controller is on the floor.
There’s a hole in the wall from when he punched it earlier.
His headphones are about to burst from how loud the music is.
No one can hear his sobs or see how messy his hair is.
He is replaying their last conversation, thinking,
she’ll never take him back.

The Unsaid Feelings

You have no idea
how many times He wanted to tell you
how He really felt


He just
kept it all inside

if you
could have tried
looking into His eyes
He would have said it all.

But you never tried to. 😐

Do you know?

Do you know what it’s like to have
heaven and hell collide inside you?

The Knot that makes you want to cry,
scream and punch the walls down

and yet all you can do is sit there
and feel your throat tighten

and your eyes burn with your tears you’ll never shed.. 😐

“You heard that Cry?”

There’s that occasional night where you just breakdown and cry because you know that no matter what, things will never be the same.

The worst type of crying is the silent one.

The one when everyone is asleep.

The one where you feel it in your throat,
and your eyes become blurry from the tears.

The one when your lips start to shake
and the tears which build up quickly starts to fall.

The one when you’re crouched and trying to suck it in
and not make any noise.

The one where you just want to scream.

The one where you have to hold your breath
and grab your stomach to keep quiet.

The one where you can’t breath anymore.

The one when you realize the person that meant the most to you,
is gone.. 😐