When Asked

When asked,
“How you can smile all day long?”

He replied,
“Maybe..
because I have nights
with full of memories
to cry for.” 😐

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Oh… Great

Friday, 19:24

Here, I am standing next to my friend and in front of a girl who this guy likes a lot.

Today, near this fast food corner he has met her after a long time, with a question.. “How are you? and what you doing here? 🙂 “. She replies with a smile on her face, “I’m awesome & just waiting for a friend. How about you?”. With a happiness in his body language, he said “I’m fine, as always! Just here with my friend to get something to eat. 🙂 How about your friend, is the person from your college or school? “. With a shy smile she says, “Actually, He is my school friend & I am meeting him after a long time.” For a second or two he hasn’t said anything, looks down and then again looking at her, says, “School friends are always specially, he must be your good friend.” With an extremely thoughtful smile as if she remembered someone, she speaks, “Yes, he is my best friend & I like him a lot. ❤ ” Suddenly her phone rang and after 5 seconds of conversation on phone she said, “time for me to go, will see you next time. Bye!! ” In a low voice he was only able to say, “Oh… Great, take care, Bye! 😐 ” She turned and started walking away.

As we started the long walk back, he slows down and turns back to see her getting lost in the crowd. In a very less of a time she was out of the picture of our eyes. I put my right hand on his shoulder and without a word being said he turned and started walking.

Throughout their talks, I was a person who was only listening to both of them. I knew about her as this guy has talked a lot about her in past few years. As we were walking back, we did not exchanged a word with each other. He was just moving slowly with some deep breaths and looking into the sky for a while. I know he was not okay.

One thing that I acknowledge was the last words he said that evening, “Oh..Great!”
This “Oh” sounded as if his heart has ripped into millions of pieces. He was not able to speak after that. It appeared as if his throat has choked and only thing he was able to do is, breathe. 😐

Do you know?

Do you know what it’s like to have
heaven and hell collide inside you?

The Knot that makes you want to cry,
scream and punch the walls down

and yet all you can do is sit there
and feel your throat tighten

and your eyes burn with your tears you’ll never shed.. 😐

“You heard that Cry?”

There’s that occasional night where you just breakdown and cry because you know that no matter what, things will never be the same.

The worst type of crying is the silent one.

The one when everyone is asleep.

The one where you feel it in your throat,
and your eyes become blurry from the tears.

The one when your lips start to shake
and the tears which build up quickly starts to fall.

The one when you’re crouched and trying to suck it in
and not make any noise.

The one where you just want to scream.

The one where you have to hold your breath
and grab your stomach to keep quiet.

The one where you can’t breath anymore.

The one when you realize the person that meant the most to you,
is gone.. 😐